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I kept this to myself twenty years.
34THPARALLEL MAGAZINE ISSUE 18 ART IS THE ONLY ANSWER
IVAN DE MONBRISON SONG IN THE KEY OF VAGINA
ALEX SCHMIDT UNKNOWN
ESSENCE MOORE SCOUT
BRIAN KAYSER BURYING EMILY
KATE BRODY SNAKE CANE
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ROHAN CHHETRI THE GREAT MARCH
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UNKNOWN BY ESSENCE MOORE
34THPARALLEL MAGAZINE ISSUE 18

I turn and face my mother and as I take a breath my heart breaks. I feel slightly lightheaded. The tears are welling up in my eyes and I’m unable to hold them in, they fall down my face ruining my make-up.

I take another deep breath and I say to my mother: “It pains me to bring you to my session to reveal what I am about to reveal to you, and it pains me even more of the hurt that I am sure will follow after I’m done saying what I have to say.”

She remains silent.

I tell my mother, “Mommy I have been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder and the reason I have this is due to the sexual abuse I suffered as a child.”

The air seems thicker now.

“No one knew this, I have kept this to myself for a little over twenty years. I didn’t want to tell you because I didn’t want you to hurt or think there was something you could have protected me from, because you are a great mother and I couldn’t have asked for a better one. I just decided I would shoulder the burden and try to forget about it.”

I waited for my mother’s response.

She asked, “Who did this to you?”

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